Every generation faces the same situation of aging and realizing the world you grew up in and influenced you in your prime years of education and experience to prepare you for the world ahead no longer exists. Many events have also caused the "the world you grew up in no longer exists" button to keep going off while you're trying to manage and get ahead. But how did you think you would get ahead of time? 

You watch all the young people scramble in their own unique bubble on the timeline and not sure how they manage as you're all treading/floating/drowning in some way or another. 

All the people who have power will not stop having power. On Instagram some years back I observed a man's comment to Greta Thunberg about her anger and despair pleading to the powers to take it seriously the climate crisis. He said he appreciated her fight but it was older than her, things already set in motion before she was even born that she cannot prevent it coming to pass. That she needn’t feel immense pressure and guilt to solve and save it all. He himself was older from what I could tell in his profile picture, so he will not be here for the world that she will have to grow old in. 

The rest of us (mostly) has rescinded to grow old in accepting that it can't really be different, no one cares, and you can never change people. The powers that be do not want a better world and they gladly will destroy the planet to prove that point because they are doing that currently and the all centuries prior. And the voters won't even give it a second thought pulling the lever. Not their problem. Their fate is on some other mythical timeline not tied to together with everyone else's. Young people don't even poll high caring about this issue anymore when it comes to elections. They have given up seeing the psychopaths who have the iron fist of rule who will not change a damn fucking thing.

The disconnect not even unique to Americans. Brazil is on the verge of electing a man who will bulldoze the rainforest even when they thought that was in the past that possibility after they threw out and punished his father. But these evil leader types are zombies ready to come back again and again. Indonesia is destroying its rainforests. Their government is killing off the wildlife. The same wildlife who don't understand why the world they grew up in no longer exists. 

 

 

What is America outside of being an empire of mass terror and violence, home and abroad? It's the country that had the Floyd protests and a few months later people stormed the capital because the antichrist was not crowned president. Four years later within months of the student encampments against the genocide of Palestinians was also when the same antichrist won the election. Just a place of impossible tensions and contradictions, but I don't think defining it only as a place of colonial and imperialist evil and darkness is the way to summarize it all. I don't think it even motivates people who want to help turn it around. There is something hopeless and demoralizing summarizing America as a one single truth and even dishonest. And we still have to get up the morning for those who can't leave. I'm not a person who is interested in having a relationship and defending a nation state with nuclear weapons or giving all my love to it. It would be nice to feel that something could still be turned around, even his first term it felt maybe it can change. But time goes forward either way.

The gardener is planting

blue and white 

flowers

some angel moved in with me

to flee the cold

temperatures on earth are

rising

but we wear upon us some

immovable frost

everyone carries his dying as

a growing shadow

- Etel Adnan

You fucking dummies can't find the obvious tie that reproductive rights, freedom and justice is working class consciousness then that's your own limited and dishonest political lens, and not cause Gloria Steinheim was a CIA asset. 

(*smug bullshit from some leftist men on social media acting like abortion is some special boutique issue that stopped a working class uprising cause it was supported by a complex and complicit legacy of a mainstream feminist)

Slap that 'WoKE 1 WaS CrAZy lol 🤪' shit out of your fucking mouth. What's wrong with you? Everyone is such a coward and/or a mark. Do you fucking people not see what's going on? Bending the knee to the right and dismissing all that made you come up...At least Mamdani had his ego and political radar in check to not repeat such a stupid dishonest cop out. The far right (and those who hate "woKeNESS" that participated in the pile on) just did a witch hunt-digital lynching that caused a black academic Jason Arday to end his life. Enough.

They say 'kill the cop in your head' 

reanimate the body like a zombie 

Pull the vessel into something more meaningful and less lonely 

No one can know enough to discern the first crack

sleep walk backward 

don't laugh 

This gun is barbed

spiked 

everyone is implicated 

history in syndication

They say 'scratch a liberal bleed a fascist' 

but dig into the heart and scrap the bone of any human deep enough and you'll find a nazi vulnerable and hungry 

Abort the volume and rotate the dial 

Turn around

come back