One of the greatest and most devastating health crisis's of our time is soon to be confirmed. Hell is not hot enough for the people who has let this proceed confirming with 'skepticism'. Trump and Biden did enough damage with Covid malpractice of 'oopsie this is hard to deal with, let's hope it goes away!' 

The actual Covid conspiracy 'get back to work peasants!' Glad the left didn't waste any time or energy and made sure to message and hammer this unpleasant but honest reality into people's heads...oh....oh well, great job...

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What is all this hand wringing from so called leftists on how woke has lost, and it's over? How can being socially conscious be suddenly over? OMG it's canceled because the right said so!? Get a grip and stop acting like infants who have no concept of history. You have to have more resilience and better critical thinking skills than surrendering yourself to the narrative of the day. Social consciousness can not be killed off and it will never die no matter temporary battles lost in electoral politics. On top of that by a Democratic candidate who ran the most "unwoke" and conservative campaign by a Democrat in years. Social awareness does not end. Apologies to the irony poisoned and doomers.

Don't let anyone tell you are being alarmist or overreacting. Or the manipulative 'It's always been this way, you were just only now paying attention. You need to sit and make space for your privilege.' What about the non white people chunk Trump bit off, do they get the same prescription that is just a form of neo-liberal white washing and not actual radical left critique? Of course there are the horrors that certain groups existed in that has familiar features right now and yet no one has lived with this particular collision of events before because we live in the 21st century. A very different world than much of the past actually. Why is this so hard to grapple with? Technology, communication, infrastructure, social relations, culture, politics, etc. have transformed greatly. People have to stop being so naive. Or other bad insights and making excuses like 'He will do and say crazy things that's what he does! He'll back off...' yeah back us off all a cliff. Anyway...This is another coup, Part 2 of the first one he didn't get to finish. Also the one the Republicans and their backers have been planning for over forty years. I didn't think the Democratic Party would have much resistance to Trump if he got in, that they would just do a bullshit 'wait and see until the pain sets in' approach because they are the so called adults in the room. However these smart, proper, and good Democrats don't seem to realize that when people feel pain people don't suddenly make rational decisions. The opposite is always at risk of occurring. They could say 'fuck it' and hightail it out of political participation or be so frazzled, scared, they actually double down. Even if Trump will cause much pain, it's' not a guarantee people are going to magically snap out of the spell and rush for the Democrats to remedy their misery in the midterms. When people are in pain they are not their best critical thinking selves they are upset, angry, vulnerable and lash out. Hello have you seen the last few years? How do you think Trump got back in? Man if only the opposing party was an actual opposition one. At least people who I thought were wrongly worrying themselves in believing that Trump would be able to transform himself politically into some triumphant popular figure have nothing to worry about now.

Our national anthem is dear God do not let the blows leave a permanence on America she's already have had to have multiple surgeries

So the 'we are all going to get what's coming' is happening swiftly. Smash and grab administration for Christina Nationalism to fill the hole. Glad the Democratic Party, it's supporters, people who are generally alarmed at this, progressives groups and the left are all acting accordingly for this ten tier fire and have had multiple strategies laid out since the past year Trump and the GOP have loudly exclaimed what the plans were. Happy no one called it fear mongering and dismissed it as hiding behind "both sides." I'm glad we are in such good hands otherwise it would be a once in a generation catastrophe and tragedy. 

Trump is finally getting to do what everyone was worried about in his first term. Almost a decade to prepare. It doesn't matter how well you can analyze, dissect, write, and speak out about it, what is an actual plan, what are you going to do? Throwing money at the ACLU and Planned Parenthood? Making memes and postcards? Getting angry at people who didn't want to back a candidate who did not seem committed to stopping the genocide in Gaza? Do you realize what the Democrats have done, their own version of George W Bush? The other side of the coin, those spending days of their lives scolding liberal and the Democratic Party online, dog piling leftists who don't want to label liberal/Dem voters fascists also? The smugness. Bitches you better be more humble you can't even mask and assimilated yourself in denial of the ongoing pandemic. But what am I doing? I'm scared, you got me, I'm stuck too.

The most frightening reaction backlash are those laughing about Trump supporters who are Latino and now dealing with massive fall out with deportation concerns in their communities. And the women waiting for the 'told you so' at other women. A haunting thing I saw after the unfortunate election results was a woman on TikTok who has done work in helping people get reproductive care who believed she decided to take stand and be brave. Now being a white woman of course this meant this could veer easily into self interest, 'I'm better than that! That's not me, that was never me! I don't know them! Those are the BAD people!' territory. However she did not fail to fail overcoming this fatal flaw. She openly threatened to out all right wing women who are in states where abortion is banned who dare to ask her for abortion help because they made their beds. She then made another video doubling down and laughing. The comments celebrated her as well as some corners of twitter who are stuck on FAFO. Like hello we are in the burning house along with these people too who maybe regretting their voting choices or non choices. The smoke is overcoming you also as you say you're going to sit back and laugh. So you have made your own beds also ironically. 

I saw those perfectly ugly troll photos of the rich white new right youth partying. The photographer is either undercover or in denial how he captures them. A photographic equivalent of the comic artist Eli Valley. 

So many monsters shedding out in the open like lizard skin. Creepy and weird.

 

Can we be reborn?

If the old world of what was once a new order is dying but there is a vacuum despite almost a decade of advance warning, is there any possibility from the wreckage? Has the extent of wreckage been overblown with a less than 50% popular vote? Is it ashes? Is everything to be forgotten, and if we forget then how do we not make the same mistakes again? Is America just a repeating loop of mistakes that we are trying to fight against that fate? What if all this is what is? American voters and non voters mostly failing because their politicians can offer so little yet no imagination is awakened in a tenable and workable way. If Bernie can get easily side stepped then it must look to its own weaknesses but no one wants to hear that. 'If only we could have been saved.' One man cannot have saved all our troubles though one man has exacerbated and made it all a hundred times worse ironically. It's thousand times easier to smash than repair. We are also trapped with an idle population who care very little about midterms and special elections accept Republicans. The politicians care bare minimum if you could even refer to it as care and it's people obedient that yeah they don't care either. Mirroring the apathy and bringing home that unhappiness and dysfunction to their own lives. This malaise the population are all drowning in and we can't offer the answer to 'well what can get better really?' cause who can when the people in power don't care enough just send out distress signals tweets. What is to be reborn in the recent years is we have never truly begun in the last few decades of my lifetime?

Somehow we survive

We are in a new age, for now. We are all going to get what's coming. Masses rescinding in advance. I feel a violent whiplash from Jan. 6th 4 yrs ago to now. This is all on Biden, Weekend at Biden's team and the Democrats but I'd like to take a moment to curse out the Dem primary voters of 2020 who saw Biden on display for over a year and said 'this is the man who can save us, we want to go back to sleep' and look what has been wrought. If he had never been VP Biden would have never even broke 5% in the primaries.  

What keeps me up is not what Trump and the GOP have planned, because that has been on my mind the past few years since 2021 (yes seriously), but the lack of mainstream resistance and on the ground in comparison to years prior. It's like an abandoned mine town. Now one could claim the mainstream resistance wasn't built on a solid foundation other than American institutions and exceptionalism is great "America is already great!" which isn't wrong but I'd prefer it to this. A new grotesqueness is the pop culture acceptance of him. To Carrie Underwood and Snoop Dogg and Jeff Bezos and Oscar DeLa Renta and Dior, etc rolling their tongues out and wagging. And sure we shouldn't be looking to figures like this for guidance and I don't but this acceptance that was unthinkable eight years ago is chilling. Like the 1930s, as they say history doesn't repeat but it often rhymes. I guess the Hays Code is coming back with Gibson, Stallone, and Voight leading the charge. Back to reactionary white hetro American masculine classics of The Golden Age of Hollywood. The GOP ghouls in Indiana are putting up a bill to make divorce harder and states are trying to get abortion as a death penalty punishment. These other groups and orgs who weren't mainstream resistance libs where are they? They have been hollowed out the past few years and many people have seem to have exited.

Trump is the luckiest motherfucker that ever lived and Biden is the biggest loser on earth. 

What an unspeakable tragedy we are being strapped in and lowered into, a new reverse Operation Warp Speed.

Though I do want to pause outside of myself and I am thankful even if it's temporary for the relief of the ceasefire for the Palestinians. 

Free them all.

I think of this poem "Somehow We Survive" by Dennis Brutus a survivor of South African apartheid often since I came across it around 7 years ago. We will need these words to move through what comes.

Somehow we survive
More terrible than any beast
that can be tamed or bribed
the iron monster of the world ingests me in its grinding maw:

agile as ballet-dancer
fragile as butterfly
I eggdance with nimble wariness
-stave off my fated splintering

Somehow we survive
and tenderness, frustrated, does not wither
investigating searchlights rake
our naked unprotected contours;
over our heads the monolithic decalogue

of fascist prohibition glowers
and teeters for the catastrophic fall;
boots club the peeling door.
But somehow we survive severance,
deprivation, loss.

Patrols uncoil along the asphalt dark
hissing their menace to our lives,
most cruel, all our land is scarred with terror,
rendered unlovely and lovable;
sundered are we and all our passionate surrender
but somehow tenderness survives.

"One day the Sadness Will End"

 

One of the saddest things was Lynch's life was upended by Covid and he talked about how with his condition he had to isolate because he knew it could kill him yet the crisis of all the living world, climate change, and trying to escape it ended up killing him. Though no one with any platform will say this because of the conspiracy rage that has taken over social media also propped up by bots and moved along by the algorithms.

Your life may have ended but all who loved your work will never be the same and that is the beauty and tragedy of it all. Forever altered yet at times psychologically halted and haunted by the knowledge that one day this impermanence will catch up to us also. In your work there is a line asking in fear what if love is not enough, yet we are here and love exists somewhere along with the sadness, beginnings, and endings we will all leave behind one day. Even when it seems hopeless and forever out of bounds, one day in some form, in some place love returns even in the greatest depths of the vortex. I’m sure there was so much sadness but I hope love was enough or that one day it will be. R.I.P

 

 Climate change is the economy stupid. 

Ok I am tired of so many 'we lost, we are lost politically, oh where now do we proceed and bow to, maybe people love the right' takes and people writing twilight pieces and preaching swan songs  This is politics, there is no crying in politics. Get back to work. Destiny is a thousand different choices and possibilities with no guarantees and no one thing a person or group can firmly hold onto and believe in with such certainty of the ways of the political winds. You don't need to reinvent the wheel, get your ass off and work. Do not doom us with Harris as the nominee in the next election please. 

The anniversary of the insurrection that got about 6-8 people connected directly to the day directly killed doesn't matter darkly to most of the public. He's coming back in because in America it doesn't matter a mass casualty event of sacrifice for stupidity, protecting power and celebrity, and revenge. Who doesn't hate it here to some degree? Only fools.

A new and terrible thing politically has come to my attention to infuriate and greatly disturb me. Proving further on how unprepared people are for this moment. There are rumors of Sanders being persuaded possibly to vote for RFK Jr. I believe the rumors are true because a couple weeks ago Bernie made a bill Make America Healthy Again and that has been a RFK Jr. slogan for over a year. I shuddered seeing it and realizing also many progressives didn't know that. 

Thinking it was some cool trolling...😣

Bernie....I will metaphorically launch you into the sun old man if you dare do this, confirming him or even looking like you just were about to. Any long term influence if this happens for Bernie to help the future should be shunned and I'm serious, though I know that won't happen. People will accept the nightmare because they have rescinded to the disaster of public health crisis for the last four years that has taken a toll societally. Not only in form of physical illness and disability, but psychological stress, economic downturn and reactionary politics. And what's interesting and twisted is Bernie has been trying to get through a Long Covid bill, so he honestly has some care and concern about this challenge, even if the rest of left mainstream voices is radio silence. Yet if you do believe the challenge of Covid how could you not recognize the danger of RFK? 

Bernie says he hates the brain worm's anti vax views but you are pandering and making the brain worm sex pest palpable. Why would you confirm the public health menace anti vax freak, who said Covid precautions were like surviving the Holocaust? What is going on with everyone who is usually reasonable losing their minds? He'll be hanging around anyway confirmed or not but at least you won't disgrace your legacy.

I'm a never lonely substance

Oh great now with the shit show rising already in the new year, Trump has been given a humungous gift. An opportunity for pseudo martial law (it will not be declared that). The men who killed themselves for whatever point they were making, whatever meaningless political screed thanks for the fucking timing. 

Ironically the bird flu looming over us that Biden's Weekend at Biden's team ignored to maintain power left for Trump also to fuck up. Biden as a possible stop gap, as someone who had no idea how to handle the dark ascending was so predictable. Remember the Republicans having a magical epiphany he would claim in his run? The worse was maybe his 'This is America, I'm more optimistic than ever, there is nothing we can't do' schtick though he seemed to believe in that. What a waste of a legacy and power. But that's the run and ruin of empires. The cruel and/or neglectful selfish men and rulers they breed. The eventual wasteland they leave. The price we didn't even get to try and fairly bargain our lives and well-being for.