I see optimism of the flood of new and wrong info that did not correlate to my past writings that she could lose that there was an eerie sense and while I saw signs on the roadways when got back they did not materialize so much on lawns clouded me on my last post back there. One long street that had a bunch of Biden signs in 2020 has been almost dead quiet. So the PA Dems definitely lied about signs they couldn't keep up demand. In past talking to some canvas coordinators they said the campaign was being stingy with giving away too many signs. You know it makes me think about this past Monday where I volunteered to chauffeur people who came in from NYC to help canvas. A man I was talking to who volunteered his time to help organize coming from out of state said he hoped some people would take some of the signs that were still available. But I guess that's the thing, they were still available and trying to off set them. Driving some of the people around I was in more swingy parts of Lehigh Valley and they seemed shell shocked by the normalcy of Trump flags, banners, and multiple signs on people's lawns. So seeing more of those than Harris I should have just not gone on twitter and look for some hope. When I'd talk with multiple people over past couple months I seemed to be one of the rare cautious reads of the race. Anyway a lot of words to say it is all so very tragic and we haven't even begun what that will look like. What will begin in a few months that will reverberate for years. Biden was the death blow overall. I need a long break politically, cause the weight of the world without a pause will not help me in what I need to do and who I remain to be.