One of the worst things about all of what is going on is how predictable it all was and was going to be. I stay horrified yet numbed to an extent because none of it is a surprise. It's going just I as felt it would. I'm not calm. I'm not cool and collected fully but I'm not in a panic mode in the way I would have been if this had all been a surprise or shock. I think there is much to panic about I just can't muster the energy but feel my eyes widen as I scroll through the news and watch the broadcasts. The Wall Street channel all nervous yet staying a faux somewhat upbeat 'hey what's going on there with him, kind of out there, but he'll probably calm down, right?' Jimmy Kimmel was making jokes I was watching tonight but it seemed he was just running on empty. Nasty fucking government and nasty fucking people destroying the decent things about this place. It was all so predictable. Why did so many not see that? I'm not getting caught up in the protests, the fuck oligarchs tour, and the special elections because it feels too much to feel that there is some hope you know? Living through the protests in the first term, the Floyd, then the lack of them when Roe was overturned, and then the Free Palestine that didn't move the Democrats (yes I know that wasn't exactly the point the fight for liberation predates any of this) but Trump sure as fuck took the opportunity. I will always hate Biden for this and the Weekend at Biden's team and I dread Harris popping up in 2028. Then the horror and disappointment to say the least of Fetterman. I will say that that was not predictable. I looked through old tweets of others I saved from the midterms wins of 2022 and realized how unique each election cycle is and how stupid it is to believe that one thing will carry through two years from now and to just not get hopes up. We got the worst with Fetterman and even worse now with Oz whom is going to gut/trim/slim/slice and dice Medicare and Medicaid. He's more dangerous now than when he ran and has power! The worst of all worlds. RFK dismantling healthcare and services which was so predictable as well, seems like they are getting ready to try and figure out how to get the undesirables sent off to the wellness camps. 

I stay somewhat sane in this rot somehow. I wish there was something more hopeful on the horizon. Maybe something unpredictable will happen.